Faces of Loss, Faces of Hope monthly writing challenge
November’s topic: It’s easy to focus on all the negative things that come from losing a baby, but have you discovered any ‘blessings in disguise’ throughout your journey? What can you find to be thankful for related to your loss?'
Through this roller coaster of a journey of losing my daughter Laken, I can without a doubt say (just like other BLM's) that this has been the worse year of my entire life. Of course, why wouldn't it be? Her arrival was suppose to be full of hopes and dreams, not funeral aggrangments. Everything was suppose to be pretty in pink, not bitter and dark.
It is hard to think of anything to be thankful for related to her loss, other than just being thankful that she made an appearance into my life. Although losing her has been terrible, I have also learned to let a terrible part of me go. A part of me that I had been carrying for years. The part of me that didn't know how to open up and the part of me that didn't know how to trust. Years ago I learned how easy it is to to be hurt. To be hurt by someone who is suppose to love you to no end. This person ripped by heart out and turned me into a completely different person. Through this journey I have met some incredible women, all of them suffering the loss of their baby or babies. I am thankful to have met each and everyone of them and not had to walk down this dark and cold road alone. These ladies have been true friends and true sisters. They have always been there for a BLM to BLM hug, a talk, or just a 'I'm thinking of you today message'. If anything, I am thankful that our angels introduced us all to one another.